Heart Of a Soul

So soon i see things so wide they are been...
i been here for so long.. 
i pass and passed by so much.
i think about more than i forget about...
life so strong...u skipping things but waiting for it....

So soon but not coming...
there is no love loss no love found....
live has given me that i have to be here for the last breath i take....
i taking this no more but why....
i do not know......

so soon i will see you....and be there for me... 

Having these thoughts just coming and gone with the wind, Believing in the sense of this security is not just making it fun, I have this joke to crack, that just can't get enough out of me... Do i have to be so loud to think that in such a way, having this for so long is just not making gud for me... i am helping myself to make this go away but does it have to be so hard to be so true... Some time just . i can't take this , this time that passes me... Anything is not the option and the option i need is just making things so much crazy... This is the story of thunder , story of being or making myself measurable, yes measurable..

Trying this for so long , I want to try this for you and this so I will last for so long You know me I just cannot be tht true that make this pain go away I try my best to be there for you every time , but don’t know why this is not wht I want for me. May be I need something tht does not make my life my being, my existence in such a troubled way Some time you just want to be there for some time and then just have to move on but I don’t have anything tht can hold me there.. for so much no reason I am just don’t know how to make things in such a way that I never going to believe I am just don’t know how to get out of this .. Having this thought is just don’t make no sense .. just don’t know wht to do and how to feel ..